I've had the notion to 'try and take my crochet further' and have been looking for opportunities after regular urging from friends and family.
It's an internal struggle between the intellectual hunger and my physical capacity. There are so many things I would like to do and try but I am hindered by the limitations of mixed connective tissue disease (MCTD) and my daily responsibilities of family and household.
I am sure there are many crocheters out there who would love to spend more time and energy on creative pursuits but are restricted by work, study and other commitments in their lives. What a frustration!
Last year, I was dogged by increasing fatigue and worsening pain and other symptoms. It was all I could do to manage day-to-day living tasks. Any time when I could lift up a hook, keep my eyes open and concentrate on even the simplest crochet was a blessing.
Successful treatment last year has improved my energy levels and prompted a new urge to get involved with more crochet-related activities. The only issue is whether it will be too much of a physical strain and that is where the comfort zone is left behind!
The unpredictable nature of lupus/MCTD is a bane. I might be feeling great this week and feel totally capable of committing to a project and then next week I might find myself incapacitated and struggling with daily living again.
I want to join in with certain activities but am anxious about the physical stress. On the other hand, there have been times where I have gone out and done some really fabulous things and come home totally wrecked but despite the physical toll, emotionally I felt warm and happy because I had actually done something to lift my spirits.
Soaring happiness for one day vs. days or weeks of illness and incapacity: some choice; such a torment!
In the end, I realised that doing anything more than I am already doing is truly pushing the boundaries of my 'comfort zone'–what if I can't handle it? What is the source of fear there?–but isn't that where the growth is?
As I grappled with this conundrum, I read the latest post by Anne Schüler at Crochet Between Worlds who reminded me about the learning process and how 'just doing' something new can create challenge and growth.
The nerves and anxiety are all part of the process. My response to Anne reminded me of this:
As adults we are so accomplished at many things, it is easy to forget what it felt like to learn new things. Think back to childhood: first attempts to do anything new were usually clumsy and naive.
That's normal and the nature of learning. It doesn't mean that early works are not as worthy as those more technically proficient that come later; e.g., (I'm no expert on art but) I'm sure there was an art movement called 'naive style' which is highly valued by collectors.
While we may feel awkward and frustrated when learning a new skill, remember that most personal growth and learning occurs when we are 'outside our comfort zones.'
Enjoy the process!
My urge to 'take my crochet further' is strong so I have decided to 'take the plunge' and 'have a go' (how many more clichés can I throw into a sentence?) at pursuing my passion. Maybe I will be over-committing myself but if I don't try, I will never know and will never discover the opportunities awaiting me.
May I put the ideas down here, on the record, to maintain my determination to fulfill these goals.
- Publish patterns of my own designs and sell them online.
- Participate in this year's Maker Faire ADL
- Host a Ravellenics team on Ravelry
So far so good …
This week, I delivered more silk-mohair scarves to Gallery M and have been requested to make some more scarves of different designs. This will be my first priority. I want to do at least one thing well and I can work on other things once that is established.
The silk-mohair scarves were slow going because I was trying to write my process as I went. Somehow the writing side of the brain doesn't want to work at the same time as my creative crochet side so I need to go back and translate my scribbles. That's a job for when my brain can tune into editing and proofreading mode. I do hope I can get this together very soon.
I have some other patterns in the works too but it is a matter of finding time and energy to develop them.
Maker Faire Adelaide
My only concern is that it will be a big event and I will need a 'support crew' to help me with the physical challenges. There is still time to organise that. Please let me know if you are interested in being involved.
Ravelry is hosting the Ravellenic Games again this year to coincide with the Rio Olympic Games. The idea is to play either individually or in a team to reach yarncrafting goals and maybe win some medals along the way.
In 2012, I crocheted for 'Team Mexico' hosted by Caissa of Art, Like Bread. We made new friends and had a lot of fun. This year, Caissa (a.k.a. Cami & ArtLikeBread on Ravelry) is unable to host but is willing to join in if we can find a good team.
I would love to host a 'Lupey Loops' team but with the Gallery M and Maker Faire activities, I don't think I will have time to cope with the administration of being a Team Captain. First of all, I need to know if there are any willing players out there!
"Where there's a will, there's a way" is often true. Maybe if there is someone who is willing to be a Co-Captain to help with the admin, we could put it together this year. Otherwise, if there is a team out there looking for members, let me know! It is always more fun to play with friends.
In summary, I have loads of ideas in my head and need to find time and energy to fulfill them. It feels like there are enough things to keep me occupied for the rest of my life–no chance of ever being bored!
If you would like to make a Lupey Loops Ravellenics team (games play 5–21 August 2016)
help with a crochet exhibition at the Maker Faire ADL (November 2016),
do let me know!
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Links & References
Art, Like Bread, blog by Caissa McClinton: http://www.artlikebread.com/
Gallery M, City of Marion, Adelaide, South Australia: http://www.gallerym.net.au/
EDITED 30 October 2016 Gallery M new web site: http://www.gallerym.com.au/
Lupey Loops, "Adelaide Maker Faire 2016–Call for Makers", 8 June 2016: http://lupeyloops.blogspot.com.au/2016/06/adelaide-maker-faire-2016-call-for.html
Lupey Loops, "First of the Autumn Scarves", 3 April 2014: http://lupeyloops.blogspot.com.au/2014/04/first-of-autumn-scarves.html
These are examples of some of my silk mohair designs. This year's scarves are different colours and feature a new design to be blogged soon.
Maker Faire Adelaide 2016: http://www.makerfaireadelaide.com/
Ravellenic Games (Ravelry): http://www.ravelry.com/groups/ravellenic-games-2016
Ravelry profile page 'Jodiebodie': http://www.ravelry.com/people/Jodiebodie
Schüler, Anne,"The Joy of Imperfection", Crochet Between Worlds blog, 1 July 2016: http://crochetbetweentwoworlds.blogspot.com.au/2016/07/the-joy-of-imperfection.html